Brian

So its been a month somehow since I last posted and I can’t say its been a great one. I have a decent excuse with Beth being as pregnant as she is and unable to do a lot of the things she normally does, I have had to step up quite a bit recently. Not to mention all the food.. its really not easy to be good when your partner isn’t. Of course its not impossible and I should be able to control myself .. but I dont. I am happy to say that I am maintaining my weight, but I wish I was losing. But wishes don’t seem to get me very far. Once the baby is born I’ll be home for a long time and I will get into a good routine or else I know I will be in trouble. I always have trouble with my weight when I spent a lot of time in my home office which is right next to the kitchen.. I need to put locks on the cupboards or something.

So I started drinking some coffee again and some diet coke too.  My stomach has been behaving very well with it so I’m going to see where moderation leads me.  I promise if I start to have the same symptoms again, I’ll go see the doctor.

I think I had a really good week. I drank no coffee at all with no real side effects (that I noticed). I drank one can of diet coke a day at lunch and drank water otherwise. I bought a 32oz water bottle for work and filled it up 2 times during work and tried to get a third one in at home at night. Overall I feel like I’m eating much healthier then in previous weeks. I weighed in down 1lb on wednesday, so I’m basically back to where I started at the beginning of the year.

I mentioned a post or two ago that I went to Dr. because of my terrible sinus infection – it was the first time I had been there since November of 2008. (Before we started Shrinking jeans).  When I was there a few weeks ago, they were very excited about me “only” weighing 302, because it was 33 lbs less then I weighed when I was there in 11/08.   So that was kind of neat, actually getting positive feedback at the Dr.

So per our Project Monday instructions, I tried something brand new this week. Its a little a device called the Gruve. The people at Muve were nice enough to send us a Gruve device to check out.  I am working on a separate post on the Gruve to explain how it works and why I’m pretty excited about it.

I’ve been giving myself too much slack lately. Yes, I’ve been sick and yes there have been 4 birthday parties with a total of 6 cakes; but there really is no excuse for overindulging at each party.

Its all about priorities with me. My priorities get screwed up very easily. I do too much living in the present and not enough thinking about the consequences of my actions.

While I am at the top of the chart of the BMI scale (“you’re obese!!” as the wii fit proclaims), I ‘ve always considered myself pretty healthy. I dont have high blood pressure or high cholesterol, I dont have any joint or back problems. I can’t say that I thought of myself as indestructible, but I never really thought my eating habits would cause any other issues besides “just” being fat.

Recently I’ve been having constant stomach pains and occasionally I’ve had difficultly swallowing food. I talked to my dr. and he recommended getting off caffeine, carbonation, chocolate, spicy food, alcohol etc.. and to see what happens. So here I am on day 3 of none of the above. My stomach still hurts, not terribly, its a dull pain. When I’m busy at work I can easily forget about it. When I’m home, I just want to eat. Its like my brain interprets any signal from my stomach as hunger. Its awesome.

So back to my point, I need to make time to work on my health. I need to set my priorities that put my health right up there around the top.

On an exercise note, I did the bob greene dvd.. once. I did have to run to class the other day since I was help up at work late, so I jogged the .6 miles in my work clothes and back pack. People tend to take notice a 300lb guy barreling down the sidewalk, its always fun to look at their faces.

Now, more than before, I need to work on making time for exercise and eating properly. There is more riding on it then I ever truly considered.

Very slowly. Drinking more water.. trying to not eat everything on my plate.. trying to not eat so much at night. Hopefully they will end up as actual habits as opposed to short-term “i’m on a diet” temporary changes.

One area i have not even started to improve is my exercise.. i do walk about 5-7 miles a week during my commute to work and class. But thats about it. I have lots of workout things that I could be doing but just haven’t started. But tomorrow that all changes. When I get up in the morning I will do something or another. Our Wii is currently out of commission so maybe I’ll try the Bob Greene thing. I’ll let you know how it goes

Not “good night” as in “sleep well” — “good night” as in “Holy crap what the hell happened”. I got on the scale today and I seemed to have gained about 10lbs since thanksgiving… Not cool. I was 2lbs over the dreaded 300lb mark. I am hoping to be under for wednesday’s weigh in. I drank 60oz of water today and walked 1.6 miles– two things that haven’t done a couple weeks.

I am a wreck without structure. Without it I will do nothing and eat everything.

Three cheers for structure !

I really really loved Christie’s post for the Monday Project today. You have to figure out what worked and what didn’t if you want to be successful where you weren’t in the past. Doing the exact same thing that didn’t work last time probably won’t work this time. But maybe just a slight adjustment will do the trick !

Nothing like a brand new year to start something new. Or re-start something you unsuccessfully started in the previous year. October was really good last year, but november and december were downright awful.

But its  January now and I’m home and all the holiday vacationing and eating is over. And I’m back on the internet. That’s a good thing. I spent the last week in what felt like isolation in that the only thing I could do was use twitter on my ancient Blackberry. I’m not very good at twitter and my blackberry isn’t very good at it either. It takes a really long time get updates and I’m usually distracted by the time it loads. Anyway, I’ve got full access again and now I can write endless posts about all the wonderful things I’m not going to eat. I need to get on the scale, but I will wait for tomorrow morning.

So my one and only new year’s resolution is to get involved with what is going on at shrinking jeans. If I can successfully do that, I ‘m sure the weight will come off. Cause these girls are seriously awesome and they come up with some truly great and innovative ideas.  Time to start shrinking !

So its been a full year since we’ve been here. Thats crazy.  I went back to my very first post and found that my plan from a year  ago (though I am 35lbs lighter) is still exactly what I need to do now. So I think I’m going to start taking advice from a younger, heavier me.   The only thing different now is that I  quit drinking diet coke completely..but i’ve also stopped drinking water completely… so maybe we’ll go back to the water n diet coke regiment.   So here it is… post #1:

I have this song stuck in my head from our new friend Joshua Radin.. Brand New Day .. and it is.  I mean literally, its 5:30am and I am on the train to work.  But also its a new day in sense that I am going to stick to all the ideas that have been running through my head regarding how exactly I’m going to go about losing this weight.  See, I haven’ t been in this particular situation before.   When I was fourteen, I really thought I was fat, but I really wasn’t.  When I was 26, I really was fat, but didn’t think I was.  When I was 28 I thought I was fat — but again, I really wasn’t.  Now at 31(ok 32 in 6 days) I really am fat and I know it.  So  who knows what will happen.  I have lost 60 lbs before but I have also gained it back.  But whatever, its a brand new day so lets keep looking forward.

This is what I have come up with so far, in no particular order.

1.  Get more sleep — I am up way too much.. I go to bed between 11:30 and 12:30 and get up at 4:30. That is a lot of time to eat.

2.  Plan my meals  –  I need to plan everything and not eat unless its scheduled. This will be really difficult but it will make a huge difference.

3. Drink a glass of water before each can of pop. I drink a fair amount of Diet Coke. I mean I drink ALOT of diet coke, so I need to drink a 12oz glass of water before each 12 oz can. That should help my water intake.

4. Stay Focused – its so easy to fall off track, so easy.   That’s where this blog thing should come in handy.

5. Get off my butt – I have to find a way to get into a routine of going to the gym.

With #2 in mind.. today I am going to eat…

1 weight watcher muffin for breakfast

48oz of black coffee

1 Healthy Choice Thingy for lunch

20oz of water

20oz of Diet Coke

20oz of water

20oz of Diet Coke

12 oz of Water

12oz of Diet Coke

Whatever scrummy dinner Bethie makes.

12oz water

12oz Diet Coke

12oz water

12oz Diet Coke

2 Edy’s fruit bars  (80 calories 0 fat each)

Not sure how interesting this blog is going to be, but its got to be more interesting then me talking about computers…

I tell ya.. i don’t know why i’ve been so busy lately. really seriously busy. Hmmf. Well I did weigh myself on Wednesday and i was down to 289 somehow. I think maybe i’m burning calories with all the stress. Cause it hasn’t been from exercising…. I need to get back in the saddle.

Week 2 of the shrink-a-versary already, hard to believe. I didnt log my weight last week though I weighed in. I had lost like 4 lbs. Then this week I gained 3. So. I’m offically recording that I have lost 1 lb thus far. I’m at 291 at the moment.

So after 5 successful runs it came time for the 5k on Sunday morning and it just didn’t work out I think I just started off too fast and somehow lost my motivation to keep running. So I ended up walking part of it. But I finished. So that is good and the first 2 miles were the fastest I have run yet… that last 1.2 is what killed me. Anyway you can see the carnage Here.